Tuesday, 14 November 2017

im doomed

bismillah.

im doomed man, doomed.

degree life is so tiring. the non-stop assignments. college's activities.
i feel like quitting man.

at this rate i feel like i need a boyfriend. why? because i need someone to motivate me, to tell me that im doing well, to tell me that both of us are working hard for our freaking futures.

assignments.
you will be fine if you understand the freaking content but if you dont understand, you're doomed, just like me.
choose your fucking group members. never take them as members just because they are your fucking friends.
weh sumpah i feel like crying.

'pi la buat assignment tu. hg meroyan sini buat pa'

OK.

college's activities. this one is what i fuck the most.
for fuck sake doh every nights on weekdays i got activities. i got no time for assignments weh sumpah.

WEH TOLONG LA IM SO IN NEED OF MOTIVATION IM SO WEAK I NEED AFFECTION WEHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Monday, 28 August 2017

6dayssssss

bismillah.

6 days left until degree life. excited? a bit. but more to scared actually.

why? because the course i will be taking for degree is a course that i need to memorize a lot of things. back then during asasi, my course was more to calculation. during first semester i did terribly but alhamdulillah not during second semester. i was satisfied with my cgpa. 

im not sure if my brain loves to memorize or calculate. im full of doubt of myself. im afraid that i might not be able to take this course. yeap, if you never try, you never know. but im still scared to death. 

being apart from my family again after 4 months at home is the worst. i dont know, i just love my family more than anything. if only they know how much do i love them, they could cry lol.

may Allah give me strength and patience during my 4 years of degree.
may Allah help all of us in everything we do.
may Allah ease.
ammiin.