Ku Tiba Lagi

#np Hyperact - ku tiba lagi

Ku tiba lagi, bersama rasa rindu datang bertamu di ruang hati kecil yang berbicara.

If you asked me whats so special and attractive about him, the short answer would be none other than, “he’s kind”. Kindness is subjective, yet yours feels complete to me. 

Today, you showed me your kindness again, without fail. But as usual, I was the one who reached out to you first. I knew I must’ve looked desperate, but I just wanted to talk to you. I sent the message, but deleted it after some time, because the thought of where I stand in your life suddenly hit me.

But you replied.

I told you to ignore it, as I was just giving excuses just to talk to you. You asked, “so what did you delete?” I told you, and you asked me more, and kept the conversation going.

And that was so you.

You, who rarely took me lightly whenever the topic was about me. 

You, who made me feel truly seen and cared of. 

You, who always showed interest in whatever I said. 

You, who is kind.

You, who I still do not want to let go in silence.

The conversation ended in an hour, with you reacting with an emoji to my last message. And I, crestfallen once again, for the countless times. But still, thank you. I was delighted, even just for a while— knowing that both of us were literally holding our phone, texting with the thought of each other. Except that I did it while beaming the whole time. 

Maybe you saw through my desperation, or maybe you didn’t. But if you did, I hope you saw that it was out of care instead of need. You make me want to reach out, even when I tell myself not to.

Talk to you soon :)